High school

At 15 years old, i began I high school. With everyones words in the back of my mind, I truly believed things would start to look up from here for me. unfortunately, that’s not what I was destined for. The first month of high school, I became Inseparable from a girl who had previously not liked me in junior high. Honestly, she was my only friend throughout high school and I wouldn’t have made it out alive if it wasn’t for her. On the other hand, I had a really difficult freshman year. I had my first kiss within the first month, I remember being so excited that it finally happened for me. But the guy called me fat and ugly afterwards and that just broke me a little bit. Like I mentioned though, I had that one friend who made me feel better about it. I remember after the guy told me that, that little voice inside of my head wanted me to reignite my eating disorder. Though I decided to just ignore it and continue living my life.

A few months later I ended up meeting a guy named Tyler. Honestly, I can’t remember for the life of me how I met him, but I really wish I hadn’t because it changed the course of my life for the worse. We only met in person twice, he was a year younger than me but looked like he could be much older. He was very chivalrous and knew the right things to say to get me to like him. The first time we met was mainly uneventful, we kissed but it ended there. The second time was when things completely changed for me. We went to the mall, he took me outside and pulled me into an a spot where we wouldn’t be seen, and I was raped. Without going into too much detail, also i truly can’t remember much because he hit my head against the wall, I vaguely remember the whole situation. I remember afterwards waking up like I was just in some sort of nightmare. I didn’t know if he had forced me to fully have sex with him, or just do other things. But that was the night my life changed.